So I was thinking about life today.

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Life is about walking towards something and not necessarily ever getting there. Life is about learning to let go of bad, but also good things. Life is rather about chasing yourself, than someone else, about finding who you are and becoming who you want to be. Life is about change and knowing that today you can be a little bit better than you were yesterday. Life is also about accepting that you are allowed to have bad days and you shouldn't put so much pressure on yourself. Life happens one day at a time and that's how you should live it.

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