How it all started
It is so hard to put your whole life under a microscope and even harder to be the one looking through the lens I am an atypical person. Unlike many, I can lay my life on the table and analyse it. I am not saying that it's easy peasy, but it is possible for me to do that. It took a lot of time alone with nothing to do but think about "what I did wrong" to be able to do that now. I can see right through me and find what triggers my bad habbits, my blockages, my negative emotions, my involuntary reactions... I can see it all clearly. I grew up in a small town, surrounded by 3 other children from the neighbourhood. Because of the big age gap (4-5 years younger/older), for the most part I interacted with only one of them, so I grew up to be much of a loner. The kids from school lived too far to be alowed to meet them so during winter and cold days I was to see kids at school and during summer - this one kid in my front yard. Even with that one I wasn't alowed to spend